Thursday, October 7, 2010

Empty Nest Discovery #34: It Seems I've Overlooked Something Important

WANT! Lolcat Cookie, originally uploaded by melissacorey.

Yesterday someone asked me, "what do you want?". Not in an exasperated 'beat it, scram' way, but I think this person actually wanted to know what I wanted at the moment. I went mute. I tried to say something, but I couldn't think of anything to say. I was kind of taken off guard. I'm sure I wanted something at the moment, but I couldn't access any information about it--and even if I could have, I would have been afraid to say anything about it.

I've spent the last ten years asking myself what I wanted and trying to give myself those things. It took years for me to even answer myself because for so many years before that, what I wanted didn't matter. When I started answering myself and getting myself the things that I wanted, I considered my mission accomplished. Personal growth, check! It never occurred to me that other people might want to know what I want too. I'm glad I got to experience that--it was some of the good stuff of human interaction, even if my part of it was a bit clumsy. Call me Leo the [Very] Late Bloomer.


RayJ said...

being a great parent puts YOU at the bottom of the list

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